Sunday, June 27, 2010
Reunited, and it feels so good
While practicing my already written songs, which itself is kind of a big deal for me, I decided to play Negative Attention, a song I've been ignoring for a while. Compared to my other songs, that one always seemed like an amaturish attempt, but I think I like it again now. One more song to play at the Caterpalooza show, if nothing else!
Fixation/real knife song take 3: MUSIC!
Nothing I can really type here (at least not in an interesting way), but I've finally gotten the Blue Hottness involved with this one, and we've worked out some chords and a melody. It's shakey, but we'll get there.
And hey, guess what? You know how good guitar players move the fingers on the left hand a lot? Like more than just at the chord changes? There will be some of that in this song!
And hey, guess what? You know how good guitar players move the fingers on the left hand a lot? Like more than just at the chord changes? There will be some of that in this song!
Fixation/real knife song take 2: second draft
Slight revisions, some additions, and verse/chorus/bridge structure. I think it may need a bit more work, but I like where it's going. Also, some title ideas: Use A Real One, Just Do It Already, Release Me.
I know you're not obligated
Even so I feel entitled
I want to see you
But I don't want to see you
I want to tell you nothing has changed
But I know that nothing has changed
I have no right to pissed
But this pain deserves a response
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Say that you love me while you listen to my death rattle
They say time heals all wounds
But this one is festering
I want to move on
But I can't get over it
I want to tell you how bad I feel
But I don't want to make you feel bad
I've no desire to hurt you
Though I can't deny the appeal
If you're gonna hurt me, do it for real
Finish what you started
Take responsibility
For what you're doing to me
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Hold me in your arms as I bleed out
A stab in the back as you flaunt your love life
Slitting my throat with your giddiness
Fuck this, it's your loss!
Who am I kidding?
You seem fine and I hate you for it
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Say that you love me while you listen to my death rattle
I know you're not obligated
Even so I feel entitled
I want to see you
But I don't want to see you
I want to tell you nothing has changed
But I know that nothing has changed
I have no right to pissed
But this pain deserves a response
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Say that you love me while you listen to my death rattle
They say time heals all wounds
But this one is festering
I want to move on
But I can't get over it
I want to tell you how bad I feel
But I don't want to make you feel bad
I've no desire to hurt you
Though I can't deny the appeal
If you're gonna hurt me, do it for real
Finish what you started
Take responsibility
For what you're doing to me
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Hold me in your arms as I bleed out
A stab in the back as you flaunt your love life
Slitting my throat with your giddiness
Fuck this, it's your loss!
Who am I kidding?
You seem fine and I hate you for it
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Say that you love me while you listen to my death rattle
Friday, June 25, 2010
fixation/real knife song take 1: the brainstorm
I know you're not obligated
Even so I feel entitled
I want to see you
But I don't want to see you
I want to tell you nothing has changed
But I know that nothing has changed
I have no right to pissed
But this pain deserves a response
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Say you love me while you hear my death rattle
They say time heals all wounds
But this one is festering
I want to move on
But I can't get over it
I want to tell you how bad I feel
But I don't want to make you feel bad
I've no desire to hurt you
Though I can't deny the appeal
A stab in the back as you flaunt your love life
Slitting my throat with your giddiness
Fuck this, it's your loss!
Who am I kidding?
You seem fine and I hate you for it
Even so I feel entitled
I want to see you
But I don't want to see you
I want to tell you nothing has changed
But I know that nothing has changed
I have no right to pissed
But this pain deserves a response
If you're gonna stab me, use a real knife
That would be more loving
Tell me how much you care as you twist the handle
Say you love me while you hear my death rattle
They say time heals all wounds
But this one is festering
I want to move on
But I can't get over it
I want to tell you how bad I feel
But I don't want to make you feel bad
I've no desire to hurt you
Though I can't deny the appeal
A stab in the back as you flaunt your love life
Slitting my throat with your giddiness
Fuck this, it's your loss!
Who am I kidding?
You seem fine and I hate you for it
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Incomplete songs
Here are songs that are works in progress, and one that's finished but I never perform due to an inability to sing in harmony, a co-writer too busy with his own music career to perform with me, and fear of being sued. A lot of this is probably shit, but I'm posting it anyway.
The Doughboys Are Talking Again
(Written with Kyle Rothchild, inspired by Johnny the Homicidal Maniac by Jhonen Vasquez)
Her blood drips from my hands
Onto the cold hardwood floor
Paint it on the drying wall
Tomorrow it will demand some more
Dead bodies as far as the eye can see
I'm really starting to think something's wrong with me
And the Doughboys are talking again...
Dear DIE-ary, I don't understand
How I keep getting away with it all
Maybe I should visit the stars
End all this torment with just a phone call
Nailbunny, help me out in this time of need
Help me cope with a world of ignorance and greed
And the Doughboys are talking again...
Am I a slave, or can I kill by choice?
A cosmic flusher, or purely insane?
I still don't understand myself
Although I've been to heaven and to hell and back again
Gotta leave all this misery behind
Go next door and give Squee one last goodbye
Are the Doughboys finally dead?
Tao
In my quest to be like an uncarved block of wood
Sometimes I fail, sometimes I do well
I would do well to learn to enjoy failure
As the river flows to the ocean
So path is forged to the type of
Understanding I seek
I may be meek, but I know I will inherit nothing
There is no right, there's no wrong, there just is
The Way is nameless and shapeless
Untitled Atheism Song
The night sky is so beutifull
And the best part is it's natural
When the birds fly by you don't question why
You just shrug and say "intelligent design"
But you're missing out on everything
Birds don't need a god to sing
We celebrate the seasons
And the movements of the planet Earth
But it's not enough for the faithful
They always give their joy to somebody else
But they're missing out on everything
We don't need gods to sing
Ki-Ki
(I' ve actually performed this one once but was very unhappy with the result, and I can't remember how to play it now)
You're name's not Ki-Ki, but I'll use it anyway
Not that there's anything wrong with your real name
But I think "Ki-Ki's" pretty, just like you
I get all tense when you walk by
You same my name, I wanna die
I'd like to ask you out
But when I try, the words get lost
I'd like to call you Ki-Ki, don't know why
I'd like to make you happy if you'd only let me try
You know I'm not too good at this
Terms of endearment and all that shit
But if you don't like Ki-Ki then at least let me call you mine
You may have noticed, but I like your company
If you like mine it would mean a lot to me
Words escape me whenever I'm with you
I'd like to take you to a show and dinner
But you'll never know
I'd like to ask you out
But when I try the words get lost
I'd like to call you Ki-Ki, don't know why
I'd like to make you happy if you'd only let me try
You know I'm not too good at this
Terms of endearment and all that shit
But if you don't like Ki-Ki then at least let me call you mine
Maybe if you get me drunk I'll loosen up
And maybe if I get you drunk it'll matter
Maybe it's not meant to be (and you can tell me what that means)
Maybe I should be a man and try
I'd like to call you Ki-Ki, don't know why
I'd like to make you happy if you'd only let me try
You know I'm not too good at this
Terms of endearment and all that shit
But if you don't like Ki-Ki then at least let me call you mine
Sailboat
Across the ocean we can float
In a fancy sailboat
On the water, boyancy
With my boat I'm boy-on-sea
No cars, no lights, just you and I
No cops, no rules for us to live by
We're just staring at the night sky
Counting stars as life passes by
As life passes by I'd like to get away
Leave these bare walls behind
As youth fades away I'd like to forget
Leave my whole world wet and windy
Trim the sails and have a drink
Lots of time to stop and think
Complications? Don't recall
You and me is all, is all
A character study of a necrophiliac
I see her lying there
Ivory skin and golden hair
The smell of formaldehyde fills the air
I brush my thumb across her lips
So cold and unresponsive
Like a statue, like a monument
To thinks that used to be
Don’t judge my love!
Don’t you understand
The search for the timeless
In the heart of a man?
It’s the perfect relationship
The perfect relationship
She doesn’t age, she doesn’t judge
She’ll never change, she’ll never budge
As long as she’s well preserved she’s mine
No fights or jealousy
Deceit or disloyalty
And I’ll never
Have to meet her
Friends and family
Don’t judge my love!
Don’t you understand
The search for the timeless
In the heart of a man?
It’s the perfect relationship
The perfect relationship
The Rodeo of Living (Incomplete)
I see time creeping up on me
I've been waiting for you
All my days drifting away
And what am I trying to prove
I'm feeling old but looking young
Forever apart from you
I can live forever, I don't want to
Happiness eludes me, I don't know which way to turn
On the path of life before me, I must seek and I must learn
But I can use a good companion, someone by my side
To help me keep my balance on this steer that I must ride called life
I never know how the wind will change
I die more everyday
It's like a plauge wasting away
This frail and brittle frame
It never ends, this rodeo
Of living imcomplete
I can ride forever, I don't want to
It kicks and bucks with all the vigor
That you used to pull your hand from mine
Tossed about just like a ragdoll
All I ever asked from you was time
We Are Explorers
We're on a journey through the cosmos
Our vessel is big and round and blue
We are explorers; the greatest thing about us
We're on a path of discovery
A quest with no destination
We are explorers basking in the uknown
It's true, we are very small
And the universe is vast
There's a lot that we don't know
Which is a lot that we can learn
I don't need to have all the answers
I don't mind the mystery
The quest for truth is more about the journey
Than the destination
The Arbiter
Everybody wants to have all the things their told they cannot
Everybody wants to be all the things their told they should not
Nobody could recognize who you are from what you're saying
Nobody would even try, don't you know the cost of playing?
You and me, we're a perfect match
You and I couldn't be more wrong
I'll be the one to control how you feel
I'll be the arbiter of what is real
You can pretend to decide what you know
It makes no difference, enjoy the show
Have your cake and eat it too, might as well be pushing daiseys
Maybe you forgot the score, count yourself among the crazies
Nobody would think to blame after your traumatic breakup
Nobody would to shame, tell us all about the shakeup
You and me 'till the end of days
You and I couldn't be more wrong
The Doughboys Are Talking Again
(Written with Kyle Rothchild, inspired by Johnny the Homicidal Maniac by Jhonen Vasquez)
Her blood drips from my hands
Onto the cold hardwood floor
Paint it on the drying wall
Tomorrow it will demand some more
Dead bodies as far as the eye can see
I'm really starting to think something's wrong with me
And the Doughboys are talking again...
Dear DIE-ary, I don't understand
How I keep getting away with it all
Maybe I should visit the stars
End all this torment with just a phone call
Nailbunny, help me out in this time of need
Help me cope with a world of ignorance and greed
And the Doughboys are talking again...
Am I a slave, or can I kill by choice?
A cosmic flusher, or purely insane?
I still don't understand myself
Although I've been to heaven and to hell and back again
Gotta leave all this misery behind
Go next door and give Squee one last goodbye
Are the Doughboys finally dead?
Tao
In my quest to be like an uncarved block of wood
Sometimes I fail, sometimes I do well
I would do well to learn to enjoy failure
As the river flows to the ocean
So path is forged to the type of
Understanding I seek
I may be meek, but I know I will inherit nothing
There is no right, there's no wrong, there just is
The Way is nameless and shapeless
Untitled Atheism Song
The night sky is so beutifull
And the best part is it's natural
When the birds fly by you don't question why
You just shrug and say "intelligent design"
But you're missing out on everything
Birds don't need a god to sing
We celebrate the seasons
And the movements of the planet Earth
But it's not enough for the faithful
They always give their joy to somebody else
But they're missing out on everything
We don't need gods to sing
Ki-Ki
(I' ve actually performed this one once but was very unhappy with the result, and I can't remember how to play it now)
You're name's not Ki-Ki, but I'll use it anyway
Not that there's anything wrong with your real name
But I think "Ki-Ki's" pretty, just like you
I get all tense when you walk by
You same my name, I wanna die
I'd like to ask you out
But when I try, the words get lost
I'd like to call you Ki-Ki, don't know why
I'd like to make you happy if you'd only let me try
You know I'm not too good at this
Terms of endearment and all that shit
But if you don't like Ki-Ki then at least let me call you mine
You may have noticed, but I like your company
If you like mine it would mean a lot to me
Words escape me whenever I'm with you
I'd like to take you to a show and dinner
But you'll never know
I'd like to ask you out
But when I try the words get lost
I'd like to call you Ki-Ki, don't know why
I'd like to make you happy if you'd only let me try
You know I'm not too good at this
Terms of endearment and all that shit
But if you don't like Ki-Ki then at least let me call you mine
Maybe if you get me drunk I'll loosen up
And maybe if I get you drunk it'll matter
Maybe it's not meant to be (and you can tell me what that means)
Maybe I should be a man and try
I'd like to call you Ki-Ki, don't know why
I'd like to make you happy if you'd only let me try
You know I'm not too good at this
Terms of endearment and all that shit
But if you don't like Ki-Ki then at least let me call you mine
Sailboat
Across the ocean we can float
In a fancy sailboat
On the water, boyancy
With my boat I'm boy-on-sea
No cars, no lights, just you and I
No cops, no rules for us to live by
We're just staring at the night sky
Counting stars as life passes by
As life passes by I'd like to get away
Leave these bare walls behind
As youth fades away I'd like to forget
Leave my whole world wet and windy
Trim the sails and have a drink
Lots of time to stop and think
Complications? Don't recall
You and me is all, is all
A character study of a necrophiliac
I see her lying there
Ivory skin and golden hair
The smell of formaldehyde fills the air
I brush my thumb across her lips
So cold and unresponsive
Like a statue, like a monument
To thinks that used to be
Don’t judge my love!
Don’t you understand
The search for the timeless
In the heart of a man?
It’s the perfect relationship
The perfect relationship
She doesn’t age, she doesn’t judge
She’ll never change, she’ll never budge
As long as she’s well preserved she’s mine
No fights or jealousy
Deceit or disloyalty
And I’ll never
Have to meet her
Friends and family
Don’t judge my love!
Don’t you understand
The search for the timeless
In the heart of a man?
It’s the perfect relationship
The perfect relationship
The Rodeo of Living (Incomplete)
I see time creeping up on me
I've been waiting for you
All my days drifting away
And what am I trying to prove
I'm feeling old but looking young
Forever apart from you
I can live forever, I don't want to
Happiness eludes me, I don't know which way to turn
On the path of life before me, I must seek and I must learn
But I can use a good companion, someone by my side
To help me keep my balance on this steer that I must ride called life
I never know how the wind will change
I die more everyday
It's like a plauge wasting away
This frail and brittle frame
It never ends, this rodeo
Of living imcomplete
I can ride forever, I don't want to
It kicks and bucks with all the vigor
That you used to pull your hand from mine
Tossed about just like a ragdoll
All I ever asked from you was time
We Are Explorers
We're on a journey through the cosmos
Our vessel is big and round and blue
We are explorers; the greatest thing about us
We're on a path of discovery
A quest with no destination
We are explorers basking in the uknown
It's true, we are very small
And the universe is vast
There's a lot that we don't know
Which is a lot that we can learn
I don't need to have all the answers
I don't mind the mystery
The quest for truth is more about the journey
Than the destination
The Arbiter
Everybody wants to have all the things their told they cannot
Everybody wants to be all the things their told they should not
Nobody could recognize who you are from what you're saying
Nobody would even try, don't you know the cost of playing?
You and me, we're a perfect match
You and I couldn't be more wrong
I'll be the one to control how you feel
I'll be the arbiter of what is real
You can pretend to decide what you know
It makes no difference, enjoy the show
Have your cake and eat it too, might as well be pushing daiseys
Maybe you forgot the score, count yourself among the crazies
Nobody would think to blame after your traumatic breakup
Nobody would to shame, tell us all about the shakeup
You and me 'till the end of days
You and I couldn't be more wrong
Lyrics to finished songs
For those interested, I thought I'd post the lyrics to my songs. I've put most of these up before in Myspace blog entries when Myspace was still cool, but they were kind of scattered around, so here, all in one place and in no particular oder, are the songs that I've been performing.
This Song Is Not Yet Titled
Why do you enthrall me the way you do?
Why are you so prevalent in my dreams?
Why can't you be older? Why can't you be closer?
And why can't you be more available?
My head tells me you and I won't work
But my heart thinks that we'd be perfect for each other
And it's not like we're facing eternity
We wouldn't have to be forever
But maybe for a little while
We could have some good times
Do you ever wonder what might have been
Had I been more persistent in the past?
If we got together way back when
How long do you think it would have lasted?
Probably not too long
But it's not like we're facing eternity
We wouldn't have to be forever
But maybe for a little while
We could have some good times
I'm not sure what to do now - You're so lovely
You're so hard to resist, but you're so resistable
And I'm so easily worked up; I'm such a sucker
I'm so impressionable. It's so hard to have my own ideas about love
Someone else said I've got it in for you, and now I've got it in for you
Someone else said I've got it in for you, and now I've got it in for you
But it's not like we're facing eternity
We wouldn't have to be forever
But maybe for a little while
We could have some good times
A Colossal Wast Of My Time
Look at me: a busy little worker bee
Come and see me try to survive in the Hive
The queen and the drones fuck all day
I'm down on the ground floor slaving away
Trying to produce so they will never be hungry or homeless
I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Look at me: a productive little worker bee
Come and see me try to press on; carry on
I struggle to stay awake
Tired and hungry, my will never breaks
I try to do well so I will never be hungry or homeless
I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Somewhere down the road I gave in
And I lost sight of who I am
I prance around town
Wearing my black and yellow uniform
I forgot the word resistance
And purged myself of my persistant
Individuality
Oh I am a company man
And I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Look at me: a happy little worker bee
Come and see me smile and succeed; good little bee
I smile with each small praise
It's ok, I don't need a raise
I'll so as I'm told so I will never be hungry or homeless
I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Cowerdice
I don't know
If I could be
What you'd want me to be
If you and I were we
And that's why I'm afraid
To tell you the way
That I feel about you
It's something that I do
You can find me underneath my rock
You can find me head under the sand
I don't know
Why I can't speak to you
Honestly
When it means so much to me
I'm a child inside
It's easier to hide
Than to do something good
That I know I should
You can find me underneath my rock
You can find me head under the sand
You can't find me
Integrity or Masochism: You Decide
As she walks out the door
I don't bother asking
If it's something I said, I know what I said
You see I'm not a liar
She asked me something I didn't want her to know
I should have said yes, but instead I said know
'Cause it's the truth
And know I'm alone again
So hit me again Lady Honesty
Mistress may I have another?
You're my oldest friend and my only lover
But you don't put out
I give, and you take,
Everything I need
Oh, why do I have such a thing for Honesty?
We all say we want the truth
But so few of us mean it
We like our fantasies, we find them comforting
We're a society of liars
So when you tell me I should speak my mind
I know that we don't have much time
Because I do
And then I'm alone again
So hit me again Lady Honesty
Mistress may I have another?
You're my oldest friend and my only lover
But you don't put out
I give, and you take,
Everything I need
Oh, why do I have such a thing for Honesty?
So what's the point of having integrity
If I only end up in tears?
It feels a lot more like masochism
Looking back on all the years
And how am I to decide
Between being happy and being true to myself?
So hit me again Lady Honesty
Mistress may I have another?
You're my oldest friend and my only lover
For all the good it's done
I give, and you take,
Everything I need
Oh, why do I have such a thing for Honesty?
Negative Attention
Dried by the time I get home
Tired and ready for bed
27 now, it's been so long
At least this time I was alone
Yet I write this with intent
Of sharing with any who'll hear
Exposing this embarrasment
To a certainly judgmental crowd
Negative attention is better than none at all
Pity me, mock me, I don't care
As long as you listen to me
Got to the fridge, see the kitchen knife
And entertain horrible thoughts
And the only thing stopping me
Is the high price of health care
But I want you to notice me
And I really don't care how it's done
Scorn or smiles or tears shed
As long as for me I'll be fine
Negative attention is better than none at all
Pity me, mock me, I don't care
As long as you listen to me
None of the Above
Why should I believe a word you say
When your pitch is saying I've gone astray
And trying to scare me with consequences
Trying to convince me that your way is the only way
You ask me what if I'm wrong
Determined that you're right
And frame it as dichotomy
But it's not black and white
There's lots of choices out there
I'll just take my chances with none of the above
I ask for proof; you offer faith
And tell me it's the kind no one can shake
It's easy to be certain when you don't need verification
But your way ain't the only way
You ask me what if I'm wrong
Determined that you're right
And frame it as dichotomy
But it's not black and white
There's lots of choices out there
I'll just take my chances with none of the above
I'm not trying to change your mind
Why must you try to change mine
Why can't we go our separate ways
Why must you ask me what if I'm wrong
So certain that you're right
And frame it as dichotomy
When it's not black and white
There's lots of choices out there
I'll just take my chances with none of the above
Denial
(Written with Kyle Rothchild and a bottle of rum)
I've taken off my skin
Turned into someone else
Someone I've never been
I'm tracing back my steps
Trying to find why
And where did I go wrong
You said "Weren't you the one who re-arranged yourself?"
And I said "Hey man, it must have been someone else."
You said "Oh, I'm sorry. I swear, I've seen your face before."
And I said "Hey man, at least you know who you are."
I've taken back myself
Turned into someone old
So old I've been before
I'm going back again
For the same reason
What was that again?
When was that again?
I said "Weren't you the one who re-arranged yourself?"
And you said "Hey man, it must have been someone else."
I said "Oh, I'm sorry. I swear, I've seen your face before."
And you said "Hey man, at least you know who you are."
This Song Is Not Yet Titled
Why do you enthrall me the way you do?
Why are you so prevalent in my dreams?
Why can't you be older? Why can't you be closer?
And why can't you be more available?
My head tells me you and I won't work
But my heart thinks that we'd be perfect for each other
And it's not like we're facing eternity
We wouldn't have to be forever
But maybe for a little while
We could have some good times
Do you ever wonder what might have been
Had I been more persistent in the past?
If we got together way back when
How long do you think it would have lasted?
Probably not too long
But it's not like we're facing eternity
We wouldn't have to be forever
But maybe for a little while
We could have some good times
I'm not sure what to do now - You're so lovely
You're so hard to resist, but you're so resistable
And I'm so easily worked up; I'm such a sucker
I'm so impressionable. It's so hard to have my own ideas about love
Someone else said I've got it in for you, and now I've got it in for you
Someone else said I've got it in for you, and now I've got it in for you
But it's not like we're facing eternity
We wouldn't have to be forever
But maybe for a little while
We could have some good times
A Colossal Wast Of My Time
Look at me: a busy little worker bee
Come and see me try to survive in the Hive
The queen and the drones fuck all day
I'm down on the ground floor slaving away
Trying to produce so they will never be hungry or homeless
I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Look at me: a productive little worker bee
Come and see me try to press on; carry on
I struggle to stay awake
Tired and hungry, my will never breaks
I try to do well so I will never be hungry or homeless
I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Somewhere down the road I gave in
And I lost sight of who I am
I prance around town
Wearing my black and yellow uniform
I forgot the word resistance
And purged myself of my persistant
Individuality
Oh I am a company man
And I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Look at me: a happy little worker bee
Come and see me smile and succeed; good little bee
I smile with each small praise
It's ok, I don't need a raise
I'll so as I'm told so I will never be hungry or homeless
I don't mind
No I don't mind
Being dead inside
Cowerdice
I don't know
If I could be
What you'd want me to be
If you and I were we
And that's why I'm afraid
To tell you the way
That I feel about you
It's something that I do
You can find me underneath my rock
You can find me head under the sand
I don't know
Why I can't speak to you
Honestly
When it means so much to me
I'm a child inside
It's easier to hide
Than to do something good
That I know I should
You can find me underneath my rock
You can find me head under the sand
You can't find me
Integrity or Masochism: You Decide
As she walks out the door
I don't bother asking
If it's something I said, I know what I said
You see I'm not a liar
She asked me something I didn't want her to know
I should have said yes, but instead I said know
'Cause it's the truth
And know I'm alone again
So hit me again Lady Honesty
Mistress may I have another?
You're my oldest friend and my only lover
But you don't put out
I give, and you take,
Everything I need
Oh, why do I have such a thing for Honesty?
We all say we want the truth
But so few of us mean it
We like our fantasies, we find them comforting
We're a society of liars
So when you tell me I should speak my mind
I know that we don't have much time
Because I do
And then I'm alone again
So hit me again Lady Honesty
Mistress may I have another?
You're my oldest friend and my only lover
But you don't put out
I give, and you take,
Everything I need
Oh, why do I have such a thing for Honesty?
So what's the point of having integrity
If I only end up in tears?
It feels a lot more like masochism
Looking back on all the years
And how am I to decide
Between being happy and being true to myself?
So hit me again Lady Honesty
Mistress may I have another?
You're my oldest friend and my only lover
For all the good it's done
I give, and you take,
Everything I need
Oh, why do I have such a thing for Honesty?
Negative Attention
Dried by the time I get home
Tired and ready for bed
27 now, it's been so long
At least this time I was alone
Yet I write this with intent
Of sharing with any who'll hear
Exposing this embarrasment
To a certainly judgmental crowd
Negative attention is better than none at all
Pity me, mock me, I don't care
As long as you listen to me
Got to the fridge, see the kitchen knife
And entertain horrible thoughts
And the only thing stopping me
Is the high price of health care
But I want you to notice me
And I really don't care how it's done
Scorn or smiles or tears shed
As long as for me I'll be fine
Negative attention is better than none at all
Pity me, mock me, I don't care
As long as you listen to me
None of the Above
Why should I believe a word you say
When your pitch is saying I've gone astray
And trying to scare me with consequences
Trying to convince me that your way is the only way
You ask me what if I'm wrong
Determined that you're right
And frame it as dichotomy
But it's not black and white
There's lots of choices out there
I'll just take my chances with none of the above
I ask for proof; you offer faith
And tell me it's the kind no one can shake
It's easy to be certain when you don't need verification
But your way ain't the only way
You ask me what if I'm wrong
Determined that you're right
And frame it as dichotomy
But it's not black and white
There's lots of choices out there
I'll just take my chances with none of the above
I'm not trying to change your mind
Why must you try to change mine
Why can't we go our separate ways
Why must you ask me what if I'm wrong
So certain that you're right
And frame it as dichotomy
When it's not black and white
There's lots of choices out there
I'll just take my chances with none of the above
Denial
(Written with Kyle Rothchild and a bottle of rum)
I've taken off my skin
Turned into someone else
Someone I've never been
I'm tracing back my steps
Trying to find why
And where did I go wrong
You said "Weren't you the one who re-arranged yourself?"
And I said "Hey man, it must have been someone else."
You said "Oh, I'm sorry. I swear, I've seen your face before."
And I said "Hey man, at least you know who you are."
I've taken back myself
Turned into someone old
So old I've been before
I'm going back again
For the same reason
What was that again?
When was that again?
I said "Weren't you the one who re-arranged yourself?"
And you said "Hey man, it must have been someone else."
I said "Oh, I'm sorry. I swear, I've seen your face before."
And you said "Hey man, at least you know who you are."
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Before music was comics
I didn't blog last night but I should have. I was doodling at work and got it into my wacky head that I should start drawing again. I used to draw quite a bit with dreams of being a cartoonist. I had a few ideas for some comic strips a while back, but got discouraged because, although some people have told me I draw well, I don't draw as well as I'd like to. I was thinking about it yesterday, and got the idea of drawing a comic strip that has an all robot cast of characters. Why? Because robots are not as hard to draw as people. Robots aren't real, so they can look like whatever you want. If your hands look funky (and my hands always look funky), just say that robots have funky hands! So the idea is a comic strip with robots doing human things; like a strip written for human characters, but the characters are all robots. I would call it Robots Are Easy.
While we're talking comics, a few years ago I actually produced a few strips for a project I call Oddities. I posted them on Myspace (this was back when Myspace was the popular hang out) and asked for feedback. I got none, so lost the motivation to continue. The thing is, I really enjoyed making them, and think I came up with something that has some potential for an audience with an appreciation for the bizarre. I kind of want to start it up again. While you're reading this, perhaps you could click on the link and let me know what you think.
While we're talking comics, a few years ago I actually produced a few strips for a project I call Oddities. I posted them on Myspace (this was back when Myspace was the popular hang out) and asked for feedback. I got none, so lost the motivation to continue. The thing is, I really enjoyed making them, and think I came up with something that has some potential for an audience with an appreciation for the bizarre. I kind of want to start it up again. While you're reading this, perhaps you could click on the link and let me know what you think.
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